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Forgetting everything else (something about a film marathon and gay rights and the Moscow olympics) about the dream... here's the important bit:

I'm in a classroom, and class is getting out. We are milling about, some of us are talking to the professor.

Suddenly, iamsab bear hugs me from behind - all 90 pounds of her.

She's wearing a charcoal and black dress with silver piping and little tiny faux pearl beads sewn in.

I hug her tightly. She is smiling broadly. I look into her eyes, bursting with life. I can feel the warmth of her body, her hip bone and ribs and arms against me. I can feel her breath, her life.

But I know she is gone, and has been gone for a long time.

I hold on to her for a long time, but she tells me: "I have to go."

I say "I know."

Then I'm awake.

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first, damn you tony bourdain and your negronis. man do i want one of those.

sound familiar?


been snacky all day. egg tacos in charred whole wheat tortillas with salad.. then a beef wrap (basically with another salad, in the wrap), then angel hair with lardons, mushrooms and basil, cheese under the broiler.. then i made a couple little parsnip fritters and some fried seiten with an asian aioli and salsa.

now, i'm going to eat an apple.

at least i'm getting lots of veg and fiber today.

oh yeah, gotta write some shit in ruby. that's going to be great. well, i guess i should get started on that tomorrow.

had a wonderful little brunch with ES. i totally have a crush on her. yes, she's a bi-polar lesbian. she's also a really sweet girl, super smart and has a similar half dark, half whimsical, imaginative, wide-eyed, weird view of the world. and she was a staff writer for an awesome sci-fi show that i shall not name at this time.

oh, and i'm probably going to cull my friends list soon. those of you who are still frequent users of LJ fear not, but if you have been lurking you should comment below.

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let loose on the roommate after hearing one too many jokes about cleveland..

if you grew up in SF, listen up:

* your public transportation is embarrassingly bad; privatization of the SF municipal rail, BART and Caltrain are all failed experiments and the "free market" wants it both ways: cheap transportation of labor but restricted public funding of transportation. sorry, public transportation needs to be truly publicly funded and not run as a for profit business; and industry must chip in it if expects to reap the benefits. why can't the bay area get this right? [ETA: bad in SF, nearly nonexistent in Cleveland.. I am comparing SF to Europe/Canada, etc other places that get pub. xport right.]

* if you grew up in the bay area, chances are you are a dullard, entitled, smug gadabout with no class and no sense of culture (beyond, perhaps, 1960s counter culture and its offspring or your chosen gender/race identity). this is not universally true, but there is a softening of the mind that happens to people who live sheltered, entitled lives. i am not immune, but the hardships of coming from an economically depressed, yet vibrantly multi-cultural place like cleveland has i think better prepared me to truly be open to new ideas, arts, music and culture than many of the insular SF natives I have met. sorry, but it's true and everyone from outside of the Bay Area knows it (although few openly acknowledge it). part of it is poor education, part of it is geopolitical isolation, and part of it is, i don't know, not having real weather. who knows why?

[ETA obviously i am exaggerating.. but have you ever noticed that ppl in SF tend to talk about the same four or five topics over and over, endlessly, until the brain numbs? maybe it's my fault for having boring friends..]

* yours is a racist, segregated city. and I know racist, because east side cleveland = black and west side = eastern european / german / polish. still, clevelanders manage to intermingle better than natives of san francisco, who often give lip service to diversity without actually being diverse at all.

* bagels. can't get 'em in San Francisco.. what passes for corned beef is horrid. you have to go to mt view to find a decent deli (dittmer's).. san francisco's food scene lacks soul. oakland's doesn't, but oakland is quickly going the way of the mission in terms of gentrification. there is wonderful food in san francisco, to be sure, but it is not the same as a street-corner gyro in the flats or perogies out in rocky river or venison jerky in ashtabula. and yes, there is some terrible, terrible food in the midwest. skyline chili? awful. these days, sf is no more a food mecca than las vegas. why is that?

* SF politics are near anarchy. now, i love the newsome/daly show as much as the next liberal wonk, but sometimes it is just embarrassing to have to explain to a normal person, a normal progressive even, the machinations of myopic SF identity politics and the clowning around in city hall. progressive politics in places like oakland, cleveland, detroit, baltimore, etc are about solving real hard problems. it should be the same in SF. often, it's about looking and sounding like a fucking idiot to the rest of the world. I am talking to you, Chris Daly.

Now, I have lived in SF for nearly 15 years and I will probably continue to live in it for many years to come. I imagine living most of the rest of my life in california somewhere. but I get sick of hearing about how much better it is than everywhere else on the planet, especially from people who haven't really traveled outside of the bay area at all.

San Francisco, you are not the only city in the world. i love you, but get the fuck over yourself.
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Comment here if you want to stay on, and if I don't know you that well, why.
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What? What is going on?
Just Spring cleaning..
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From AP:

Islamic clerics in Malaysia rule to ban tomboys
By JULIA ZAPPEI Associated Press Writer
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Obama/Biden 2008

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I declare jihad on this site:


Do what thou wilt.
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First off, I "maintain" a blog at http://und1sk0.blogspot.com/.

It has not been seriously updated in many, many months.

I feel that the trend of blogging peaked probably around November of last year, and now it is well into a down grade from which it will not recover. I have no facts or figures, but I am confident that history will vindicate me.

That said, I really think that LiveJournal is uniquely positioned to experience a major uptick in usage (and by that I don't mean one LOL post after another, but serious usage, substantive postings and an increase of users).

Perhaps my optimism for LJ is based on a myopic nostalgia for communication fora of my youth. I believe that, 4chan notwithstanding, LJ is the biggest, best (and prettiest) BBS of which I've ever been a member.(*)

(*) Sorry, Tom Jackiewicz. UPT was fun, but it is no LJ.

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Stephen Paul "Elliott" Smith, 6th August, 1969 - 21st October, 2003

I wish you had stuck around a little longer to write more songs. We miss you terribly.

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Socialism refers to a broad set of economic theories of social organization advocating state or collective ownership and administration of the means of production and distribution of goods, and the creation of an egalitarian society.[1][2] Modern socialism originated in the late nineteenth-century working class political movement. Karl Marx posited that socialism would be achieved via class struggle and a proletarian revolution which represents the transitional stage between capitalism and communism.[3][4]

Socialists mainly share the belief that capitalism unfairly concentrates power and wealth among a small segment of society that controls capital, and creates an unequal society. All socialists advocate the creation of an egalitarian society, in which wealth and power are distributed more evenly, although there is considerable disagreement among socialists over how, and to what extent this could be achieved.[1]

Socialism is not a discrete philosophy of fixed doctrine and program; its branches advocate a degree of social interventionism and economic rationalization, sometimes opposing each other. Another dividing feature of the socialist movement is the split on how a socialist economy should be established between the reformists and the revolutionaries. Some socialists advocate complete nationalization of the means of production, distribution, and exchange; while others advocate state control of capital within the framework of a market economy. Social democrats propose selective nationalization of key national industries in mixed economies combined with tax-funded welfare programs; Libertarian socialism (which includes Socialist Anarchism and Libertarian Marxism) rejects state control and ownership of the economy altogether and advocates direct collective ownership of the means of production via co-operative workers' councils and workplace democracy.

In the 1970s and the 1980s, Yugoslavian, Hungarian, Polish and Chinese Communists instituted various forms of market socialism combining co-operative and State ownership models with the free market exchange.[5] This is unlike the earlier theoretical market socialist proposal put forth by Oskar Lange in that it allows market forces, rather than central planners to guide production and exchange.[6] Anarcho-syndicalists, Luxemburgists (such as those in the Socialist Party USA) and some elements of the United States New Left favor decentralized collective ownership in the form of cooperatives or workers' councils.

Please explain to me how this in any way describes Senator Barack Obama's economic plan(s).

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